I've come to this conclusion from the last 2 months; Norway suits me.
I think about my traits and what frustrates me while I'm in the states...namely my anxiety--and the pressure I feel because of it, needing to feel accomplished and independent--but not wanting to settle into a profession, my drive and motivation to make a difference--but the time it's taking me to do it, my wanderlust--and my desire to learn about new and different cultures...is very controlled and honed here in Norway.
Here are some reasons I think that that is the case.
- There is a lot of pressure in the States to be someone and get there as soon as possible--with blinders on. In Norway, people are very content enjoying the view.
- Pressure, for me, equals stress. In the words of my host dad, "Don't stress". I got up late (happened once), he said, "Not a big deal, don't stress". We were leaving the house and I was in a rush to get ready because we were late, he said, "We have time, don't stress".
- Things in the States are very fast-paced. In Norway, things go at a uber-slow speed. At times this can be painfully annoying, but overall it makes me less of an anxious person.
- My wanderlust in the States does nothing but make me antsy and stress me out... by being in Norway, I feel very connected to the rest of the world, to other cultures and people--which makes me feel more grounded and less anxious.
It has been a while since I have felt like I belong somewhere, and I have felt calm and happy. I am welcoming that feeling with open arms.
i love this post and i recall that very feeling from when we lived in oslo in 2006. i felt very at home and very relaxed and i was aware of it. i brought the feeling home with me, but it dissipated fairly quickly. i hope i find that again.
ReplyDeleteI was going to let it go, but then you said it again... I think the term you want is "wanderlust." Like the lust to wander. I don't know though, maybe you lust to wonder too ;) Oi! hehe... sorry - I don't mean to pick. I give you permission to critique my blog to pieces!!! Love your post though. I actually was wondering (wonderlust?) how you were feeling there. I am so glad to hear to are calm and happy!!!
ReplyDeleteGood call, Kate, good call. I even gave you credit for the change. You smart ass... :)
ReplyDeleteAnd Kari (I'm assuming you wrote the first one)--I know what you mean..it's hard to bring back a feeling like that when you go back to somewhere familiar..A similar thing happened to me when I came back from India...but come back, you and will find that feeling again, I promise! :)